Mood is MUCH Better

Wow! Thank you to everyone who called, emailed, posted, sent ice cream (6 pints direct from Ben and Jerry's), sent cards, notes, hats etc....THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU....

My mood has improved so much since the week of July 4th. Having so many supportive people in my life is the main reason.

I had great talk with the Nurse Practitioner at my Onc's office. I was just B%^&!-en about how low I was feeling..."I used to be SO high energy" "I used to be SUCH a great Multi-Tasker" "I used to work-out SO much" etc etc etc.

Laura (RN) responded so matter of fact "You will never be like you used to be -so quit trying to get there and quit comparing your old self with your new self...you will just frustrate yourself and get even more depressed". So obvious...so incredibly dead on.

She also told me I NEEDED to move my butt. Some kind of exercise twice a day. Even if it's for only 10 minutes at a time. AGAIN...GEEZ...so obvious...so incredibly dead on.

I guess it helps to hear from a professional the same advice you would give to anybody else.

So, to all my friends and family ....to RN Laura, AND to the size 2 skirt I bought at Ann Taylor last week.....YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

Jack Johnson

My sister Diane first introduced me to this musician, Jack Johnson, when she made me a CD compilation that included his music. I take this CD with me when I have "Scan Day"...It really helps me get through the nonsense of those days.

Jack Johnson was a performer for Live Earth broadcast from Sydney yesterday....what a treat for me.

Here is a sample of his Music.

Curious Nick

My 4 year old nephew Nick reminds me so much of curious George....he's a curious little monkey with a BIG smile and HUGE hug.

TELL ME you can't see a resemblance :)

07-07-07 Live Earth

For those of you living under a rock...yesterday was the 7 continent concert event initiated by Al Gore's "Green Campaign". www.liveearth.org

It was pretty cool...I really hadn't "planned" on watching it...but I found myself awake at about 3:30am Saturday am and I flipped on the TV.

I got to see the kick-off at sunrise in Sydney Australia. It was WAY COOL. I was watching it live and they had aboriginal singers and Gore kicking it off. I got hooked...by the time Jeff woke up they were halfway around the world....Japan, Germany, England. The acts were SO diverse....Snoop Dogg, Keith Urban, Jack Johnson, Madonna, Alicia Keys....and a whole MESS of bands I haven't heard of.

By late afternoon they were broadcasting from New York, DC, Brazil...etc. If you get a chance to watch any highlights of the event, you should. It kinda reminded me of the broadcasting event(s) that encompassed the new millennium...except this was promoting stopping Armageddon...and the millennium broadcasts were trying to capture it live.

Y2K Armageddon....brought to you live....by Pepsi and Fidelity Investment Services.

I don't know how I managed, but I watched a 24 hour concert and AND the Wimbledon women's finals. Thank Goodness for TIVO.

It's Time

My blog started out as a writing outlet for me. You can see in my earliest posts I wrote alot more than I do now. This blog has evolved into just random thoughts and pictures and feelings.

I think it's time. I think it's time for me to continue (almost wrote finish) writing. The hope of this blog is that there is no ending. No ending wouldn't make sense now would it? Unless you are David Chase of course.

Sometimes I feel like the luckiest person on the planet. I have met sooo many amazing, wonderful people throughout the years - from - my career, living in Winter Park for 25 years, going to 4 high schools, 2 colleges, raising my step-kids, having a big beautiful loving family, from the men I have loved...and the very special one I have in my life now.

How lucky am I? I have worked in NYC, San Francisco, London, Germany all while having a home in Central Florida. I have been to the top of the Andes and to the bottom of the Amazon basin..... I haven't seen the Eiffel tower....Ce la vie.

Why am I so blue?? Because. Just Because. I feel like I had my chance at life....did a pretty decent job...but it feels empty somehow. Not myself anymore. I told my husband I felt "Alone with my memories".

Am I reminiscing too much? Is this what happens when you can't grasp hold of the future?

I know, I know, a "positive attitude" is everything. Believe me, I have had a life time of always being positive....ask anyone who knows me well.

2 years of dealing with advanced cancer to the bones, the lungs the brain....you know?...I'm a little beat....My negative cells are eatin' up my positive cells.

I have so much to say...I don't know if I should unload in just one post. Maybe too much to bear.

I am looking for a reason to wake up.

My husband, my love, my rock, my arms and legs, my driver, my grocer, my cook, my brain...you are my reason.

I have been protective of my friends and family....I sometimes hide the way I feel. I Can't do that anymore. From now on..it ALL will all hang out. I can't post only when I am feeling good....I need to vent, to complain, to yada, yada, yada.

I just hope I can do it with a modicum of grace.

In My Life

Dave Matthews - In My Life

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